As I write this article sitting near my window occasionally looking out at the sky and outside world, the day looks neither bright nor gloomy but is soaked in a blue grey tint. My mind wavers at the thought of mango pickle kept in balcony for sun bath. The light is not ideal. I run and bring back the pickle in the house. Just when I try to start writing again, the bell rings. Courier has arrived. I am about to close the door when the neighbour catches me and seems keen to update me with gossip. I silently pray the Universe for rescue and like always, it obliges. My cell phone rings. I make a sorry face and excuse myself. On the phone is my aunt in law who demands to know why I have disappeared from the social scene completely!
You get the drift.
Life has been harried on personal and professional front with zillion things demanding my time, attention and energy. Past few months have been like running life on "auto pilot" mode, mechanically as if running after some insatiable chase moving like an addict into unheard, unseen rhythm of uncontrolled chaos! The impact shows in the way every single cell of my body protests for the torture I inflict upon it time to time. The fatigue is not only physical but emotional and psychological too.
I realize, it is time to cut off completely from frazzled routine and grasp at something real, spend time with myself or perhaps do nothing! Maybe just enjoy the incorrigible, idle inertia and be present in the moment. Maybe it is time to have a quiet dialogue with life with help of my camera and go for shoots. Or maybe write all those stories brimming in my head but somehow never find a way to this blog.
I realize, it is time to cut off completely from frazzled routine and grasp at something real, spend time with myself or perhaps do nothing! Maybe just enjoy the incorrigible, idle inertia and be present in the moment. Maybe it is time to have a quiet dialogue with life with help of my camera and go for shoots. Or maybe write all those stories brimming in my head but somehow never find a way to this blog.
Sometimes I wonder if there must have been times when we human beings were mightily happy to just sit and be! How many moments during the day do we really feel the stillness to focus on the moment passing by, the present and deeply enjoy it? Exploring alchemy of stillness and its intricacy in otherwise chaotic and often claustrophobic spaces is an art not many of us have mastered and that is certainly what I strive to achieve.
The frenetic cadence of life rarely allows us to see beyond our softly padded walls. But we often find our truth in least expected spaces, in the least imagined ways.
Maybe, I am going through a strange phase these days. I feel irresolute, conflicted, discordant, unmoved, uninspired and sometimes completely overwhelmed by incessant challenges life keeps throwing at me.
There are times when something within compels us to be silent and stay still. Times when we naturally remain withdrawn and just witness the world around us and listen. I believe, when our heart leads us somewhere, it is always for a reason and when the inner core revolts for serious attention, we need to follow and find out the reason behind it. I intend to do just that. It is time I claim myself back!
There are times when something within compels us to be silent and stay still. Times when we naturally remain withdrawn and just witness the world around us and listen. I believe, when our heart leads us somewhere, it is always for a reason and when the inner core revolts for serious attention, we need to follow and find out the reason behind it. I intend to do just that. It is time I claim myself back!
